My Confession

Cakes, candy, pizza, Oh My. . .  but not for the faint of heart.

For those of you who know me, knew that I was a chunky kid growing up. I loved my sweets and greasy not so good for you foods but after high school I started to thin down some. Fat kid-no more! It wasn’t me and definitely not what I wanted for myself. I felt different on the inside but had to find a way to project that on the outside.  So I exercised  for hours. Crunching, squatting, running even doing the old jumping jacks and leg lifts. The outcome – it worked! I thought I was looking good and you know I was happy to buy new smaller clothes that I never thought I would be able to wear. So what happened?  What have I done?!   Well. . . I ate a little bit more than I should have.   After doing good for so long, how could I do this?  Am I  emotional, sad or down? Or is it that I just like good food and I have to learn how to control it.

The answer may be two things. I do enjoy good food and it is comforting for those nights when I need a companion, but to be controlled by food – absolutely not! Even though I enjoy eating all types of cuisine until I’m stuffed and having my comfort food when I’m down with an addition of a dessert,  when it comes to achieving and maintaining  my goals I have to be and live disciplined.  It truly is a lifestyle change that I enjoy and want to continue.  So what’s going on? Why do all those exercises just to go backwards? How dumb is that? I worked hard and will continue to work hard to achieve my goals in fitness and in other areas of my life .  So why would I give up or give in? The answer is – I won’t. I refuse to! Yes, I may have given in to fattening and taste so good at the moment food or a sugary dessert that will pack the pounds on when I could have chosen better,  but that doesn’t mean I will get off the bandwagon.  How many of us have given in, given up or did something dumb – when we knew better?  I’m sure many of us have. Especially, when it comes to the dumb part. Dumb things for a relationship or while you were in one, eating what you want and praying that you won’t gain weight or spending money on frivolous things hoping you will have more than enough left over to pay your bills.  I know I’m not alone in this, not saying that I did those things but I did learn a lesson and that is to pick myself up and to keep it moving, literally.

I think one of the things we have to learn is to forgive ourselves for our bad choices and not weigh ourselves down by them or constantly think about what we’ve done.  I may have overeaten a few days and nights too many but that doesn’t matter because today I won’t.   What I gained I can lose and what I lost I can get back~ my confidence, joy, happiness, peace, strength and those good feelings that always keep me on cloud nine, and you can too. Yours may not be food but whatever it is you can start over. Let this day be the day of a new beginning and a fresh start.  New life, healthy choices and a good lifestyle –  you can make it can happen!

Remember how good you felt when you worked hard to achieve something that you really wanted? After finally accomplishing it, wasn’t that a good feeling like no other?  When you work hard, stay determined and strongly dedicated to the cause  nothing can turn you around because you know what success feels like. Even if you fall down you don’t stay down, you get up. You may have messed up, and ruffled a few feathers but it’s ok as long as you do something to make it right. Everything can change when you take a step in the right direction and continue to do the right thing, when making the necessary changes.

I may have indulged in a little bit more food than I would have liked but I’m not going to let it hold me back or cause me to go backwards.  And whatever your situation is in life I declare the same for you.

Your Friend,